Hope, Faith and Patches
Last week was a blow and I took it hard. However, Ms. Patches just makes me smile more than I thought I could. Because she didn’t really give two shits about what that report said. Once she rested up from the stress of that appointment it was back to the business of being a happy dog. My God, this dog is so happy. All the hugs and kisses and eating and snuggling and smiling…..She couldn’t care less, she’s just happy and she feels great. And that makes me smile. She is now getting her cannabis oil twice a day, she’s getting Palladia and cyclophosphamide…….not necessarily against my wishes as it was a vote but with assurance that if she doesn’t want it…..she doesn’t have to take it, it meaning her pills. We have done all we can do while preserving her quality of life. We will continue to do everything we can to preserve her quality of life.
I realized something as I mulled things over last week crying my eyes out whenever I had a moment of privacy. I let that report steal my hope and lead me to abandon my faith. I can still hope that the cannabis oil somehow takes her cancer away. Why not? Miracles can happen. And I still have faith that no matter what happens, she will not suffer and she will be happy while she’s here with me. I know she’s going to heaven when she leaves earth. I know I will see her again. I know I will miss her while we’re apart. Keeping her beyond her time isn’t cool because she’s going to a much happier place.
I’m better this week. My head is in the right place. I’m still hopeful, my faith is intact and Patches makes me smile. Rooster does too. Love isn’t what makes the world go around. It’s what makes the ride worthwhile.
xoxo
Debbie and Patches
February 16, 2016 @ 7:32 pm
You’ve got it so right Debbie! Don’t let that report steal your hope. Patches sure isn’t. Just take it day by day and live joyfully each day with Patches. You are giving Patches a quality day each and every day she’s with you. Right now she’s happy and living life with great doggie gusto. You are her champion now and forever! Much love and many hugs!
Linda, Ollie, Riley & Spirit Mighty Max
February 16, 2016 @ 8:57 pm
Thanks Linda. It’s very easy to lose hope and faith and lose sight of the fact that she’s still here and I still get to make her life a heaven on earth. I’ve learned a lot of lessons from you and others on the site and the bottom line is that I have to make what time I have left count rather than count the passage of time and worry myself. Patches is teaching me a lot too. Just watching her do little things makes me smile. After our vet visit I felt like maybe I wouldn’t smile much knowing what I know but with her…….she makes the impossible possible. Thanks for helping me out as well. I love hearing from you. Hugs and love to you and your pack.
xoxo
Debbie and Patches
February 16, 2016 @ 7:36 pm
Awesome attitude Debbie!
FAITH MAKES THINGS POSSIBLE, *******NOT EASY
Paula and Nitro
February 16, 2016 @ 9:01 pm
Thank you Paula. That is a profound statement and nothing is more true. This has been quite a test. I’m doing my best day to day and as long as Patches and Rooster are happy then I have no excuse not to be happy. But man……..
Thanks for helping to ease the emotional burden. It means so much.
xoxo
Debbie and Patches
February 16, 2016 @ 9:45 pm
This is a priceless update on so many levels!!! The profound awareness lf the life lessons, the enlightenment, ohhh yeah, you are a superb student for Professor Patches!!
I read somewhere (maybe Bernie Siegel, or Andrew Weil?), if a Doctor takes away your hope, fire the guy!! I also read somewhere that there is not one single “terminal” disease…not one…where someone somewhere on this earth beat the odds and survived it!
Yes, love is indeed what makes the ride worthwhile! Just ask Patches! Just ask Rooster! Just ask any of us here!
Thanks for sharing your lovely thoughts and your renewed approach of enjoying the now…and the renewal of hope!
With love ro all!
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!
Sure hope can be redirected and redefined sometimes, but hope is the most powerful medicine anyone can have!
February 18, 2016 @ 2:00 pm
I love what you wrote. And you’re so right. She could beat the odds. She might, she might not but as long as I’m focused on what’s important it will all be ok. Not that we have to like it but we will manage. Thank you for sharing some of your strength with me. That fact that you’ve been there and you want to help others speaks volumes.
thank you Sally
XOXO
Debbie and Patches
February 17, 2016 @ 3:18 am
Focusing on the happy, smile… words of joy! Thinking of you and Patches.
February 18, 2016 @ 1:58 pm
Aww, thank you for your kind words. I’m working on it every day.
xoxo
Debbie and Patches
February 19, 2016 @ 7:34 pm
Right ON Debbie, you’ve got the Tripawds Spirit shining brightly in your heart. You are LIVING it with Patches and nothing can ever take that away. Keep up the pawesome pawsitivity!
February 29, 2016 @ 9:54 pm
Thank you. So much.
xoxo
D and P