Patches Journey

Yesterday was such a joy for us……Patches was PLAYING in the yard.  My son and I returned home from the dentist and she was out in the yard.  She saw us, came running over and assumed the “stance”.  I think you all know what the stance is….butt in the air, tail wagging, front end down and ready for playing.  She romped around for five minutes with me and her brother.  She was so happy and then she ran up three steps to get to the kitchen (meat) and pushed my son out of the way.

And I started to cry.  I’m not sure why.  I think partly it was seeing her with so much joy and not even letting being a paw down stop her.  Partly because I still feel bad that she had to have a paw taken.  Partly because I feel I should have caught it sooner.  Partly because I wished it never happened……..just so many emotions I didn’t know I still had.  I’m learning that while she is doing great……maybe I still need to work on me.  It’s human nature to look at the big picture.  It’s canine nature to live in the now.  I still have a lot of emotions to sort out.  Sometimes I find myself hugging her and crying my eyes out.  It’s a lengthy journey to acceptance, making peace with the reality.  I hope she has a loooooooong time ahead of her to be joyous.  The important things are that she IS joyous, I have time with her that I didn’t think I had and I’m making the most of every minute I still have her.  Bottom line……Patches is fine.  Mommy is getting there.  With her help and the help of her lovable brother.

What helps the most is this site and the love of friends and family who love Patches and who love me.  Life isn’t easy.  If it was…….it would be called hockey (I’m a figure skater…….it’s ingrained to us to bust on hockey players 🙂

Thank you everyone, more pictures and videos to come.  I have a video of Patches having a doggy dream and barking in her sleep.  Even in her doggy dreams she’s a little three-legged bad-ass.

Have a great day everyone,

xoxo

Debbie And Patches